Wishin' and hopin'

This month was my first round of Clomid. Just 50mg, days 2-6, but I was bracing myself for the horrid side effects. But I didn't have any (though I've probably just jinxed myself for any future cycles...).

So I went to the doctor Wednesday. For once, I wasn't really anxious about going. And it started out on the right foot...I'm down to 169 pounds, which is really exciting. That puts me back into the normal BMI range, and I'm sure will have nothing but good a good effect on my fertility. Then the doctor did an ultrasound to see if my ovaries had responded. And my right ovary had a huge follicle, just waiting to rupture! It also had a ton of little ones, as did my left ovary. But Dr. Young seemed really pleased that I'd responded to the low dose of Clomid. And I was ecstatic! For once, my body is cooperating! I'll go back next Tuesday to check my progesterone level to see if I actually ovulate.

Tuesday is also mine and Hubby's second anniversary! We're leaving tomorrow to go to the beach and spend a long weekend together, without stressing about work or babies or family (although, I can't help but think about how good the baby-making timing potentially is). It's definitely a much-needed chance to decompress a little and just relax.

So I hope that everyone has a wonderful weekend, and wish me luck Tuesday!

It's a start...

Hi, my name is Jessica, and I struggle with infertility.

So, I find myself in a place where no woman (or man, for that matter) wants to be--smack in the middle of the infertility war.

For so long, I took my fertility for granted. After years of trying so valiantly to avoid pregnancy--late night runs for condoms, waiting in line at the pharmacy for birth control pills--I just assumed that once we stopped preventing, it would just happen.

Boy, was I wrong!

Hubby and I are now 14 months into this battle. I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) in November 2008, and after several months of Metformin I still wasn't ovulating. So this month starts the Clomid adventure.

This will primarily be a place for me to sort through my thoughts, find some support, give some support, vent a little, cry a little, and hopefully, eventually, rejoice.